i never said thank you.
i always wondered what it would feel like to drown.
i promise you, you take your body and your health for granted. its so easy to live when you're not being eaten alive by your own immune system.
but guess what.
to suffocate under the weight of something as beautiful as water.
this year, i drowned. i went under, beneath myself in my own life.
i held my breath and stared up at the light above me and waited for someone to reach down and save me.
so many people tried, reaching and grasping, to pull me out of the water
but i didn't start living again until i accepted that i was dying.
i tried kicking and screaming. crying. begging to reach the surface and save myself.
but it wasn't the panic or the struggle. it was the calm that saved me.
in control whether i'm drowning in my life or choking on my own imminent death
i promise you, you take your body and your health for granted. its so easy to live when you're not being eaten alive by your own immune system.
but guess what.
its still my body, my life, my soul. i'll never give up.
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