No matter that it was on a fake head. Or that I go so nervous with Mike and Ida watching that I nearly vomited. It was a really close call. 

It didn't ease my fears. It amplified my hair fears by an obscene amount. Everyone keeps telling me not to worry, that I'll go home crying at least once. That I'll ruin someones hair and the world will go on. That its okay to make mistakes, I just need to keep practicing. 

I cant pretend to be okay with all that!! I spent 20 minutes perfecting a single section of hair so that it was exactly flush with the original guideline. 

On a doll head. 

I spent an hour and a half perfecting a straight line on a dolls head. 

I made myself sick over a dolls head. 

I'm not sure if this is going to make me a good hairdresser or an obsessive, nervous wreck that curls up in ball and cries at the sight of scissors. 

p.s. the bangs were already there. it wasn't me, i swear.